watched Eclipse for the 2nd time

so i went to SMS with Ica today
i arrived early then i went up to check what time will Eclipse start playing
then the XXI was still closed but there are peoples..many peoples were standing outside to wait for the XXI to be opened..think they all want to watch Eclipse
then we still get the ticket
good luck:watching Jacob again
Bad luck:sitting next to someone that was sleeping during the show and he snores..everybody was like hearing his snores -_-
and got new earrings..going to upload it later..sorry..
dropped few of my sour sally in a store good thing we got these things called tissue
and i don't know why but now just when i thought things are getting better something came up :(

posting again

long time no blog cause of my BAD camera on phone and
i LOST my camera USB connector..but now i have found the USB cable
so i can upload this
i went to Bandung and because i'm trying to NOT to WASTE MONEY on SHOPPING
i just bought 2 t-shirt..one for my boyfriend and one for me
it's Marc by Marc Jacobs shirt..i have been wanting this character(Marc Jocob's) in one of my item and now i have itt..but i still want the bag..well..i wore it simple..wore it to swimming pool for the first cause i'm lazyy






































for today i went to JDC to hear a presentation about making money in young age,hears it from radio and i was the first 10 participant to applied so i can go to it with my family free
and it's good..it's better than any presentation i have gone to..but only my brother will follow the trining starting on September..well.then i will try to be success without it..if i could it's great :D
hope i will be a successful woman..and..wore this..the bracelet and the jacket is new and i loved it

sorry

such a LONG TIME no entry...so sorry readers..my laptop can't connect to the internet..

can't find my photos in my mom's and brother's laptop so i can't upload photos.so sorry..

i'll fix my laptop soon

long time no post

so sorry...it's a long time since i blog last time
i can't use internet in my room so it's really not comforting when i did got internet access by using my mom's laptop but i'll try to get used to it
so tomorrow or maybe another days i'll be posting posts(real ones)
and i am dealing with my school examinaions now so i'm kind a must study..
coz if i don't pass these i won't go to senior high school
soo...i'm done telling...see u all later
wish me luck for the tests ^^

hair probs

soo..i am so confused
most of the girls said it's better if i cut my hair alittle bit more
most of the boys said it's better to let my hair long and grew..
so what am i supposed to do??
and btw i have finally figure out to tie my hair without Jess(my bro)complained about it
and it's a step up for me :D.but i still have to find out a hairstyle that my bro and my mom agreed to...
and here it iss..
but i don't even have a picture of me when i've got my long hair -_-

i don't fit in?

i felt like...i don't fit in,like i have no friends,i only have close but not to close friends but when they left me in the crowd i can't even get along with that crowd..
so what am i supposed to do?? D:

a dream i want to forget

i'm in the middle of UAN and my internet is having an error
and i just got a dream that make this day complicated,i wonder if i can do the test well?
i sure hope i can
my dream last night was the dream i don't want to get again
yet i dreamed it again
oh God,please i don't want to dream about it anymore
since i woke up i just kept thinking about it
in the shower i think about it and i almost cried..becoz i felt guilty to have that dream
it's just soo a dream i don't wanna get
hope this day turned out great,and please bless us all in doing UAN n i hope we'll all pass with goood grades ..

did i make it beter or worse..??

i've been hiding these words and feeling for too long,now i spit it out and they ask "why did u changed?what's wrong?"
so i think... "is showing my feelings wrong?"

living in the past?

hate myself in a condition like thisss...
why do i keep living in the past???
arrghhh.....
i just wanted to screammmm
why can't i forget it??like forever... :(
this afternoon after i arrive at home..i go to my room take the cushion(pillow) and screammmm...
i just want to say sorry and
"i am the stupidest person i have ever known"

scream my feeling

What is wrong with me??

maybe ur the one...

aku terus kebayang masa lalu..
tapi sedang mencoba untuk melupakannya..
tadiii...meskipun cuman serangkai kata2 yang disusun
tapi..ia membuat sesuatu yang kuanggap hampir sia2 menjadi sesuatu yang berharga
itu membuat aku luluh sampai ingin menangis rasanya
aku sungguh beruntung bisa memilikinya
tapi aku hanya mengingat masa lalu
dan jika ia melihatku sedih ia pun akan bersedih dan khawatir
aku sangat tidak berterima kasih
karna itu aku akan mencoba untuk tidak mengingatnya lagi :)
thx a lot 4 u lix :)

am i..??

am i srupid??yes i am
am i wrong?yes i am
am i pretending??i don't know..
just want to hold him now..why did i need u when u're not around? :(

....

I Just Want to Cry In the Silent
then...
i would cry as hard as i can..
I WANT TO CRY OUT LOUD

everybody's so perfect and i'm not..

kadang...bukan kadang lagi aku ngerasa aku tuh gak ada bakat sama sekali dkk
apalagi kalau lagi di antara orang2 yang berbakat
jadi minder aku...hmm...
tapi lagi nyoba have fun aja n nyari bakat
tapi begitu aku liat dia..kayaknya dya serba bisa..kenal banyak orang,lebih bisa beradaptasi dkk,sementara aku???aku bisa apa coba..huff...dya bilang aku perfect di mata dia..tapiii..aku ngerasa sebaliknya...
this where this quote is good

"respect yourself"

and so i'll follow it..i'll try..
respect myself..sooo...my plan
1.ngembangin bakat
2.hargain diri sendiri n hargain orang lain
3.keep on experimenting
4.menjalani hidup :D
and i'm gonna do it no matter what,even if it takes a longggg time..

gk bakat

setelah ngeliat beberapa orang yang berbakat yang ada disekitar aq...
aq ngerasa gak punya bakat apa2..aq pngen punya sesuatu..tapi apa...??
msalah nya th:1.aq gk konsisten
2.aq gk taw maw ngembangin apaan..kan gak ada bakat..hmm..
3.nyari tempat les nya bisa si..masalah transportasi kali
hmmm...

want something different.....

dh mayan lma jg ya gk nlis blog.hhe..
aq bingung maw nlis ap..tp kyk nya aq mlai bsen..
gmna ya..hri2 aq th biasa2 aj..aq kyk ngabisin wktu aq aj..
tp klo lg breng2 tmen ato pcr si enk.
tp pas dh nympe rmh n sndri.kyk ngabisin wktu bngt

maybe i`m wasting my time by being alone n not doing anything

pdahal hdp cman sx..aq gk maw hdp yg biasa2 aj..
tp gmna cra ngubah nya??aq bingung..
aq pngen sswatu yg bda..ap yaa..
help me...

sometimes i don`t even dare to change how i do something.........i want to change that.i want to be brave to do anything.

sorry

Chelle..maav bngt aq udh nge lakuin itu k kmu
maav bngt s bsr2 nya..aq cman bingung maw ato gk
prtma aq gk maw tp trlnjur
maav s bsr2 nya..
aq udh nge cewain kmu bngt..aq taw aq slah..
kmu blh gk prcya aq lg..
tp karna aq udh taw..
apapun mslh skrng,sbr ya...
sbr

don`t want 2 fall in love...

gk maw ska sma orng lg..gk maw pcran lg...

tpi gk bsa ngehindar...aq udh mlai ska lg ma 1 orng.huaaaa

help meee..

hdup tuh brharga tau..

tuh kan...nongol lg co yg pasrah..smua nya d pasrahin.
huff..bkan nya ngejek..tp klo maw mati jgn maen mati aja!!enk amat
udh d ksh hdup,bkan nya d syukurin mlah d akhiri dengan mati hanya karena msalah
niat hdup gk sih???klo gk niat brarti kmu gk ngehargain hadiah dr Tuhan.
ap sih ssh nya hdup??ssh gr2 ada msalah??msalah tuh bgian dr hdup kita
kta gk bsa nge hindar gtu aj dngn cra mati..enk bngt kmu maen mati aj cman gr2 1 msalah
yg nma nya msalah tuh ya...ada solusi nya
trus klo tuh msalah slese kmu msh maw hdup kan??
nah ntar klo km mati kmu dpet ap??kematian sia2
klo kmu hdup n dpet solusi bwt mslh itu kmu dpet byk..kmu dpet k hidupan
kesenengan,dll
jd jgn maen blang mati aj

alone n with friends..

d skul kdang aq merenung alias bengong
hhe
aq gk gtu taw tmpt yg bgus tuh dmna
jd aq kliaran aj.klo nyetop d 1 tmpt
aq nunggu smpe ada orng yg dteng bru aq pndh
aneh gk tuh??
yg pnting aq bsa bengong
tp kdang maw breng tmen jg sih
pengen nya sih sma tmen trus..
maw deh
tp trgntng mood sih..
aplg aq lg pengen2 nya bengong n mkir
ssh jg nih..
anyway...inti nya
aq emang sring sndri..n
aq maw ngucapin thx sebsr2 bwt tmen2 aq:)
soalnya dah bkin hdup aq sempurna.hhe:p
many says friends will las 4evr.i think it`s true
pas sma tmen damai
pas sndrian gk enk tp bsa mkir srius bngt
tp lbh enk sma tmen deh inti nya
so....yg bca blog ini
berterimakasihlah karena Tuhan sudh memberikan malaikat tanpa sayap yg kta sbut sbgai tmn